And still

This roller coaster twists below me, I'm just along for the ride, and my harness is tight and I can't escape it's nauseating drops and escalating tension.
There's a positive light when the sun reveals the sacredness of an old friendship, but of course things can get out of hand too easily as always.
I'm not good at leaving.
Or waiting.
So here I sit, a terrible Buddhist laying on top of my tired head.
I wait as always it seems as of late. but I just have to live through this, it's easy.
Just do it.

I'm still WAY into Alanis Morissette.

I have a cold.
And tomorrow's my only day off until next Monday.
:/

I just want to SEE him.
Or please even to HEAR from him would help me out some.

I wish I had more alcohol in my flesh and blood system.